My name is Tony Cox,
In 2010 i was diagnosed with major depression at the age of 16.
I didn’t think from that day on the trajectory of my life would change.
All my plans thrown away.
Depression had made its way into my head and now it affected my reality and made me do things not of me later on in life.
It made things so much harder on me.
Living in this world became a job on it’s own.
Daily things we do as human beings to take care of ourselves seemed like an impossible task to me.
Showering. Brushing teeth. Keeping up with my hair.
Even drinking water. Also staying healthly fit.
If you did not know -
Depression is one of the hardest battles a person can face.
It’s pretty much drowning every single day underwater.
You might get some moments of happiness, you might’ve found a way to swim again but it’s only a tease and you get pulled back in. You want help so desperately, to be heard and seen but nobody sees your fight.
A lot of the time, no one sees your struggle.
Unless it shows by your actions or mood.
And if you haven’t reached out to someone yet, the thoughts of suicide can come creeping in.
It’s happen to me. I attempted. I’m a survivor.
Once in 2015. The other attempt was in 2017.
I’ve been hospitalized 3 times. (2010,2015,2017)
You would think i would be better, healed, “fixed” but i’m not. I’m still fighting this battle and in the process i want to be able to help anybody who has ever felt pain like mine or something similar.
We need each other.
Together we can fight for a life that’s Free and Above.
Tony Cox II
(Follow me on my journey on instagram - @tonycox.jr)